#redacted asmr angst

[tommytomatoe]

sometimes asher smiles at pack members a little too wide for a little too long, and babe feels their chest swell with… something. 

they wouldn’t call it jealousy because what would they have to be jealous of. asher isn’t the guy to cheat, he would never. but even then, even knowing that, there’s still this voice in the back of babe’s mind thinking, “well, maybe he would.” and the spiraling begins.

after all, babe is just a human. its not like they run in pack races or know what shifting feels like or can have meaningful inputs in conversations regarding magic. this isn’t a world they grew up in, but for asher, milo, david, darlin’, and the rest of the pack; its home. for babe, it's just a house. and because of this, babe has more than once found themself just sitting in on pack meetings and smiling and nodding and waiting for asher to look back at them. 

and sometimes he doesn’t. instead he just talks and smiles at childhood friends he has deep histories with. histories that are so complex and rooted in who asher is that babe wonders why he chose to be with them and not someone else. and that swelling feeling comes back and they have to excuse themselves because god forbid they make a scene. that’s not babe’s style, they prefer to suffer in silence.

babe loves asher and they know asher loves them. but asher loves everyone and everything and it’s hard for babe to figure out where his love for them stands compared to his love for everyone else. 

[ephxmerrxl]

i’m in a mood and the 30th by billie eilish is the only thing getting me through this so if i have to suffer all of you do as well.

Alive

read on ao3 here

Geordi / gn! Cutie

cw: angst, car crash, near death experience of a fictional character, no no i’m not sorry.

A fog rolled over the city of dahlia and the surrounding area’s, people were using their brights as they drove through the misty roads. Although it didn’t help that it was early morning and people had work. Geordi was no exception to this, this cafè was the one spot he enjoyed working at but to have to endure being practically blind to your surroundings was rather scary.

The running water of the shower was stopped as the curtain was moved back, metal rings gliding across the pole they were latched around. Cutie was already awake as they gotten up before Geordi to get themselves ready for work, but it wasn’t long before Geordi woke up after feeling they weren’t in the soft bed the two love so much. Their department uniform was underneath a blazer, last they needed was their shoes and they would be off but not before saying goodbye to their lover.

“You’re not leaving without giving me a kiss goodbye right?” Geordi spoke as he walked into the room, towel still wrapped around his waist, hair wet and slightly dripping. “How could I survive my shift without your kisses?” They said before pulling him close, lips closing in on one another before stopping as the two just admired one another.

“Anyone ever tell you the wet hair look suits you pretty well?” They said with their hands now cupping his cheeks. “Oh- well no one has…actually um, thank you.” he said with surprise in his voice, he couldn’t help the smile that popped up on his face. The two kissed once more before Cutie finally let go of his face “I gotta get going now, but if you need me i’m just a call away okay?“ they quickly smooched his nose, “I love you” Geordi returned the little peck on the nose “I love you too Cutie, be safe okay? It’s foggy and dark so just be careful okay?” They appreciated his concern, they felt truly cared for.

“Thank you Geordi, be safe too okay? I’ll be home later tonight, and we can plan from there alright?” He nodded before giving them one more kiss as they got their work boots on and left the house, with that it didn’t take long for Geordi to get his outfit for the day settled and put on. He left, locked up and went in his car onto the road, and it was definitely hard to see that was for sure.

“Jesus christ how can anyone see anything in this?” he spoke as the warm air of the heater glided throughout the car, the air freshener giving off a smell Geordi couldn’t quite describe but at least it smelled nice. There was an occasional car in the opposing lane who would also have their brights on. Luckily the fog stopped the light from being utterly blinding yet still distinguishable.

The outline of trees were the border to Geordi’s peripheral view, they were slightly shaking from the wind but were rather serene he thought in that moment. Although it didn’t occur that this next turn was going to lead him to the highway that he always takes to get to the other side of town, why did it always have to be so far especially today of all days? He found himself thinking just how bad it would be if he just turned back and didn’t go in today, but of course that’s not how things work.

There were little to no cars as far as Geordi could tell but he did get a glimpse of that one store you couldn’t help but mention to him every now and then, you wanted to take him so many times to go shopping there but that damn department always keeps you so late. He turned onto the highway as he signaled to go into the right which was the slow lane since he wasn’t in a big rush but also just so other people more so in a hurry can get by instead.

—

Cutie couldn’t help but think about their boyfriend as they got out of the car to enter the department building, it was barely visible as the faint grayish blue light of the sun coming through exposed the silhouette of the building. Although they almost caught their boot on the curb, the fog was that dense.

What they couldn’t help though was feeling for Geordi’s presence, after all a certain relative always does it before he comes to visit briefly. James always spooked Cutie when he got close enough to speak in their mind but it was always nice, although this time it was just a sense of security that they needed. They had to feel him for just a second and they did.

His indistinguishable thoughts but familiar voice was all they needed to keep themselves going for the day. They opened the door as they were greeted by a colleague, all was well.

until

snap

the link broke

the link never broke that suddenly before right?

As a born telepath, they never had any issues when it came to mastering their ability none the less fully certified so this was completely new. They tried moving back a bit, even going back outside where they knew the link was fine but still nothing. Just the very faint static sounds of Cuties loose end trying to tether its way back into Geordi’s mind but to no avail.

Their breathing picked up, eyes slightly beginning to water. Nothing happened…right? Usually when you’re that far away and you get out of range it simply fades, it doesn’t just cut off in an instant but why now? They’re conflicted as they try to tell themselves it’s fine. But it wasn’t fine. Something was off but they pushed back through the doors before a familiar Stealth stopped them.

“Oh hey, have you seen this fog? it’s crazy! I turned too sharp since I couldn’t really see where I was going and that never happens. Honestly I wonder where all of it came…from.” They slowed down their statement of their day, as they noticed their co-workers distressed demeanor. “Hey is everything okay?” they said readjusting the files tucked underneath their arm.

Their breath hitched a bit before breathing out deeply, “If i’m being honest…no, I don’t know if I’m overthinking it but something is wrong.” They went on to explain the situation as they walked and talked and moved to a more empty part of the building.

“Telepathic links can’t break on the spot can they?” They said to the stealth, but something about it felt like they were also speaking to themselves. “Well…you’re the telepath so I would assume you know right?” Of course asking a non telepath would yield no results why bother. “I’m sorry just…sorry.” they breathed out before ignoring the stealth’s call to come back.

They opened the front doors once more before taking out their phone as they desperately looked for his contact, and after finding it the phone began to ring. Once, twice, three times. Only for it to be moved to voicemail, immediately they called once again, and again. Yet those three calls still went to voicemail, sure Geordi is on the highway and so he can’t quite answer his phone but his phone automatically connects to the bluetooth of the car right? It would show on the display their call? He could answer from that.

Sure they’ll have to talk to their supervisor to make up the time but right now they need to go personally to Geordi’s work and see if he’s okay, he’s okay, yeah he…he’s okay. The faint buzz in their head still trying to connect yet failing as they headed back into their car and left. Trying so hard not to go above and beyond the speed limit for something that could be nothing bad in the first place.

After a few turns they were on the road that would eventually turn into the highway that leads you to the cafè, it just had to be on the other side of town huh? They drove and slowly began to pick up speed, yet their heart fell even deeper into their stomach as they saw the flashes of red and blue hidden inside the fog.

They one handedly, pulled out their badge from the department from the middle console as they saw more and more passing cars going by slowly. Of course they didn’t have the time, so they maneuvered until they were behind the ambulance, three to four cop cars and a fire truck. They quick got out as the badge dangled from their neck, a few cops looked at them before they got closer to the scene.

Of course getting closer is all they needed because what they saw was a glimpse at that damn car and they knew almost immediately, at this point they were running to the car before paramedics stopped them. “Please! Please you need to let me through that’s my partner in that car and I need to know if he’s okay please please let me through!” They we’re desperate and the hurt in their voice made it very apparent, it didn’t take long for the medical team to explain the crash, a semi truck who thought the barely visible sunlight was better than brights hit Geordi’s car and sandwiched him between another car in front of him. Obviously the car was totaled but that was the least of their concerns.

They were eyeing the wreck as the fire fighters pried off the door, they so badly wanted to investigate but they also know to let the professionals do their jobs. But they need to know what’s happening, sure they’ll ask to enter their boyfriends mind at home. But here they can enter anyones and at the moment they can’t hear their lover so what better than someone with direct access? The fire fighters.

pulse

check for a pulse

wake up

faint

alive he’s alive

he’s alive

“he’s alive…” they muttered under their breath, using the metal guarding of the ambulance to sit. They felt relief wash over them as they just felt the tears let loose from their eyes, hands covering their face despite the fog already covering them already. The paramedic who spoke to them quickly hopped into the ambulance to pull out a stretcher, Cutie quickly hopped out of the fire fighter’s minds as they followed suite with the medic.

They stayed put out of the way as they saw the outline of their beloved, the one thing that makes them feel home, safe, and alive. But seeing him do hurt bring them a terrible feeling, a feeling they never wanna have to experience again. Geordi was propped onto the stretcher as he was strapped down and wheeled away. They quickly stepped to the stretcher as the voice of the paramedic reassuring Geordi filled their ears.

“Geordi! Geordi fuck! I’m so glad you’re okay!” Their voice hitched as his eyes slightly opened as they were the first thing he saw. “Babe…” barely audible but he was able to speak, and that’s enough for now. Their hands gripped the railing of the stretcher as they walked with the medic, so desperately wanting to grab his hands but they weren’t sure just where he was hurt, only the hospital could find out every injury.

“Can…” They coughed as they rubbed away the tears. “Can I ride in the back with him please?” They said looking at the medic with slightly reddish eyes, “No issue, get in.” He didn’t need to speak twice for them to get in, Geordi was eventually wheeled in and that’s when the full view hit them, so much blood, so many scars, but he’s alive.

“I w…was so scared” all he could say as he stared at his partner

“I was too my love, but you’re alive. You’re alive. You are alive.” they repeated to him but also to themselves, just the thought of losing him, losing something so precious. All cutie could of was lightly lean their head down on the railing and cry tears of…relief? joy? sadness? Whatever emotion was being presented, all they cared about was that Geordi is alive.

He is alive

He’s alive

Alive

[elilovesredacted]

HC

Sweetheart and David became quick and close friends when Milo first introduced them.

They liked his loyalty to his friends and his stoic nature.

He liked their commitment and how they loved Milo.

The two could often been seen at pack meetings or parties, chatting quietly.

In the short time Gabe was around, Sweetheart grew to love him and learned a lot about the pack and how Gabe adored David.

When Gabe died, Milo and Asher rushed with Sweetheart to David’s home. When they all arrived, Sweetheart booked it inside, staring at a broken David.

He stared back at them and tried to speak before the boys rushed in and he broke into sobs. Sweetheart held him with Milo and Asher.

The day of the funeral, the boys were trying to be helpful by cleaning up after the pack had gone to David’s house.

Everyone else was gone and David was sitting outside, out of sight. Sweetheart found him and sat with him. They held his hand while he cried.

They have never spoken about it, but every now and then they get together to talk about Gabe.

(inspired by Gigi Perez’s song ; Fable )

[indigo-greer-collins]

DARLIN DOESNT THINK THEYRE INVINCIBLE!!!!

they just don’t care, they know everyone they love is better off without them anyway

you don’t think they’ve heard 1000s of times that they’re going to get themselves killed? that they have so much to live for?

they’re not throwing themselves at danger because they’re certain they’re gonna come out of it alive. they’re doing it because it doesn’t matter if they do. (plus the thrill of fighting kinda helps em feel something)

[grilledcheezy92]

Lovely is probably listed as one of the 1500 dead due to the Inversion.

[themeridian]

i wonder if empowered pplz have to worry about human politics ?

like are david, angel, asher, and babe worried abt their marriage??

are they all voting kamala??

can d(a)emons even vote??????

[h0ney-dames]

🍕🍯Honey and guy angst 🍯🍕

There are a few outcomes a child with shitty parents can take, the quiet route or the loud route.

Guy took the loud route, his mother had always neglected him and his dad was never around enough, and when he was it was normally for about a day

Guy was promised all these great things from a man who couldnt even string together a sentance around his own son, Guy was practically self-sufficient by the time he was 7.

He was from a big family, he had to adapt, his parents populated like rabbits as he joked. His friends never found it funny but it was his way to cope.

His older sister moved out when she was 16, his older brother went off to the military to escape the house, and then it was just him and his sister

He did everything to try to keep her happy, but eventually, he had to move out for university…

Honey sometimes wishes they were neglected, sometimes wished their father wasn't around

Honey's family was abusive. They won't deny that, they used to, and they tried to anyway, they didn't have many people inquiring about the bruises along their back in the sports changing room, or people asking why they had always had long sleeves

When their father tried to slit their throat no one questioned them for missing for a week, or why they wore a black choker to school to hide the scar

Their mother was more the emotional abuser than their father, they called every day when they went to university. Every. Damn. Day.

Honey's parents didn’t really care, they just wanted to keep tabs on Honey.

Guy had a hard time cracking Honey, he couldn't talk to Kayla, she was too mean, she made small comments about how Honey, that god that lived in the same door as him, looked, which ticked him off.

He didn't have any respect for bullies.

Honey stayed in their room for about the first three months, occasionally peaking out when Guy would bring home pizza, guy always offered, and he always shared food

Eventually, Honey warmed up and Guy talked to them more.

One day, after spring break, Honey came home, and all the progress was lost, they wouldn't talk to guy, until Guy came home one day while Honey was showering guy came back, exhausted from work

He saw Honey, a towel wrapped around their waist, bruises… everywhere…

Guy immediately stood up, comforting them, clearly terrified that they got into a fight

Honey broke down. They will NEVER admit it, but they did, guy let Honey get dressed and they both just sat on the sofa, venting.

Honey knew that was when they loved the Guy

Guy already knew that they loved Honey.

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Tag list; @chlorine3

[moronkyne]

“you’re my son, of course you’re going to make mistakes…but, you’re forgetting that you are also your mothers son. you get back up.”

. . .

“And you make me proud, very proud, David.”

[aimedis]

darlin' getting attacked by quinn while they're taking a late night stroll. he escaped his department cell somehow. they take him down but they're fatally wounded. blood everywhere, bones broken and fractured in every place imaginable and more. it's so bad that when the pack gets there and finds them laying in the grass, asher literally throws up. marie is on her way but sam and david are trying to help. it would never have been enough. david, sam, milo, and asher are just sitting over them, begging them to keep their eyes open.

"i took him down, sammy. all by myself..." they whisper, eyes focusing and unfocusing as they try to remain conscious.

"hell yeah you did, darlin'. tore his head clean off," sam responds, equally as quiet, "you did so damn good."

marie shows up then. and sam would never get the sound of his darlin's screams and cries while marie was healing them out of his head. or how they went deathly still when she was done.

they js fell asleep from the magic, it's okay i wouldn't kill them off (or would i?)

(bonus !!)

imagine darlin' waking up days later, still looping on all the healing magic in their system and they're just being sappy and giggly with sam. picture those "partner under anaesthesia" videos.

[sigmathesillyenigma]

reasons why redactedcouples break up 🥀

if this has been done before, just take this as my take on it ^_^ also this is unedited, so uh.. bare that in mind .. this is more of a ramble

sam & david ( pt . 1 )

david :

it was only a few months into the relationship before you started to crack. you'd thought of yourself as someone strong, someone who could take those little comments and brush them off, knowing your worth.

you were wrong.

little remarks david would make, the way he would snap at you, it began to wear at you and your surprisingly sensitive soul. deciding to respect yourself and leave before you broke for good, you moved out, the only trace of you a long letter confessing how you truly felt left on his coffee table.

david would spend the next few months after that reading that letter over and over again, analyzing ever word, wondering what had pushed you over the edge. at night, he'd stare at his ceiling, replaying every time he'd ever said something hurtful to you in his head and cursing himself for not seeing how it pained you sooner. why couldn't he just bite his tongue? how did he think it wouldn't kill you inside, to be chipped away at piece by piece by the one you lost most?

by morning, he would hate you. he'd hate you for not talking to him sooner, he'd hate you for the way you let him talk to you, he'd hate you for loving him anyway, and he hated you most of all for leaving, and proving him right. you were just another waste of time, put in his life to prove that he was destined to spend the rest of his alone.

sam :

how many times had you come home, arriving like a kicked puppy on his doorstep, a delirious smile on your face while you uncover the product of your latest brawl? too many times to count.

sam hated seeing you like this. he knew that every part of this hurt you, even if you absolutely refused to show it. your vulnerable, wounded body would always betray your numb facade.

sam also knew you'd never give it up. the enticing challenge of a threat, the extreme thrill of a fight, and the raw humiliation of defeat, always kept you crawling back for more, even when you definitely couldn't take it. people weren't always going to go easy on you.

one of these days, you're going to throw yourself into a wall and it won't be the thing that breaks. hehe

you two were getting older, despite sam's unchanging appearance, and so was this. it was becoming less of a concern and more of a nuiscance to deal with every time you came home injured with another bullshit excuse. how could you not see how this was hurting you? how this was hurting him? you weren't immortal, not yet, anyway, and your life was far too short to spend it only making it shorter.

eventually, sam realized it was either going to be keeping you dead or leaving and loving you alive. he couldn't be so selfish to choose the former. he loved you. he loved you more than anything else in the world and living in a world without you in it made the shithole he was already in a whole lot less appealing.

he'd much rather you lose him than lose yourself.

@skunkox @huxleaf @definitelynuwonhere

[breezysuffers]

okay so most vampires don’t have scars, due to the super fast healing and shit, whatever injuries they might’ve had healed before they could scar. all except for the mark where they were bitten to turn.

it’s usually just your casual two circles, and normally they’re pretty neat, and intentional looking. Most vamps embrace/don’t try to hide it etc.

but Sam’s is messy and looks incredibly violent, because when he was fighting her she had to bite down multiple times to get a good grip. The bite where she eventually got deep enough to drink is a lot wider usual.

he covers it up the best he can.

[tommytomatoe]

do y’all think anytime a stab scene comes on during a movie that asher winces a little, his palms get sweaty and for a second he’s back bleeding out on the ground during the inversion, david screaming for help above him as the world slowly fades in and out?

no? just me? okay...

[vegafan69]

yall think davey thinks deeply of his parents sometimes…like

seeing his toddler self playing with mom, spending the time he wish he had with her — to feel a mother’s love vividly for the first time. to see her admire honeysuckles, her favorite flowers. to have her arms wrapped around him, telling him he’s such a handsome boy, just like his dad. feeling happy, and somber. a hint of jealousy comes through, why not him?

reliving moments with gabe. learning to shift for the first time, playing around and getting in trouble with the pack parents. having arguments and being disciplined during his teenage years. feeling like his dad doesn’t understand him, and expects a lot from him.

do you think, a few days before gabe died, he had a heart to heart conversation with david, telling him how much he loves his boy, and he’s the reason gabe lives on everyday? how he’s sorry for being harsh on him sometimes, just wanting the best for his son? or…he hesitated to say those words. “david, i want to tell you some- actually, nevermind.” — and david will never know what gabe wanted to say?

david and angel getting into fights early on in the relationship. gabe would yell at david, not allowing his son to talk to his partner like that. although he never got to see how well gabe treated his mother, he knows he must make angel as happy as she was.

do you think david regrets not showing his affection to his dad? not saying “i love you” often? do you think he regrets being so distant? that’s why he tells angel, asher, milo, and the rest of the pack he loves them and how much they mean to him, cause he might lose them one day too.

@dukecollinsbf @breezysuffers @ashertickler @marlowlvsu @darlin-collins @heartf0ul @cannibalisticveins @poedays @porters-fangs @ilovealotofwomen @mokozroach @n0r @free-boundsoul @infinitelovewiithoutfulfilmentt @ezzie-things @achios @escapisttt @aurorialwolf i forgot my taglist so like idk yeah pluh pluh

[elilovesredacted]

if y’all are Redacted Asmr account or enjoy Redacted, please say hi!

I wanna follow more of y’all and make some mutuals.

[gremlin-writes-angst]

Darlin met quinn when their hair was shaggy, like they were planning to cut it but hadn't gotten to it

Then quin scared them mentally physically , their haihad gotten so long, it wasn't their style. But it hides the marks

They didn't cut their hair for a long time. They hated it, but it was any easier than taking the judgmental looks of strangers because of their gruesome neck

Untill sam

He wasn't the only factor, but he helped them change and become more confident and carefree in those scars

So they cut their hair, really short. Or Sam cuts it, the night being one full of emotion, sam took his time, softly kissing darlin before cutting large parts off. Sam may not have much experience with cute hair, but he did a good job, and darlin looks and feels great

Bonus:

they were still getting used to the short hair when quinn was captured. so It was another layer of facing quinn, with the "claiming" bites on display

Things Quinn might have said

" I prefer your hair long. More to hold and yank. I know you were fond of that as well"

" I'm happy to see you showing off my marks. They really are a form of art"

" How does your pack feel about this- fashion statement. Ooo- better yet how does that other vampire your seeing feel about it. I bet he loves you walking around with the bites of another vampire etched in your skin. He mustn't be to offend, seeing as he hasn't biten you"

" He hasn't bitten you. I can tell you why. It those marks. To us vampires - it is like getting a steak with a bite taken out, disgusting, tainted,worthless. I'm sure you understand. No one wants someone else's thrown out leftovers. "

[grilledcheezy92]

Thinking about Milo in high school during group projects, letting his project partner know they're welcome to stay for dinner.

They see all the pictures of pack outings and ask "Are you sure it'll be okay, looks like you've got a big family."

"Nah, it's just me and my ma. That's all... family friends." Milo replies.

There's a man in the earliest photos that's still there through all of the current ones. Older, more haggard, but present. Removed from Milo who looks to be with his own age group but still standing with the woman who is clearly his mom.

Thinking about Colm coming home drunk one night while Milo has one of these school friends/project partners over and seeing this simmering seething rage in Milo. Whether it gets to Milo's temper boiling over or a shouting match or not.

Thinking about Milo apologizing the next day, embarrassed that anyone had to see his dad or his reaction to his dad.